The volume on my cd player can only go so high..after that what'll I do. Runaway I suppose..not for days or anything just one or two. Just to get myself back and find me again. Being what society wants for so long has ruined me to the bone..I have to save myself before its too late..I have to save myself before I've gone too far to turn back. I have to run and not look back. I can't think 'what if' anymore. Thats no way to live and never will be.. I went to the mall today and I feel so sick to my stomach the whole entire time I walked to the center of the mall and almost fell to my knees I was yelling inside my head and smiling on the outside. It was the weirdest thing I've ever thought of or gone through.I couldn't believe it..being fake has never bothered me before why now? And its not like I'm one of those rich super popular girls who are always fake I always thought I was true. But what do I know anymore? All I can do is laugh..laugh at myself for just figuring out the fakeness of the world. And laugh at the world..for still being fake...