None Nothing to explain. Why cant there be something other than this pain? Stumped in my own disbelief, I have taken many hours contemplating whether or not it was right or not. I haven't really come to a conclusion. One side is it was reckless and vengeance. The other side is full of the what ifs, and the could have been imposters. But in the end, I feel like it doesn't justify the consequences of consequence. My reality is that there really was nothing that anyone would do. Reality that the only things breaking are my bones. Take a jump at it. Get a running start and leap of the top. Before you hit first remember that the pain you will feel isn't for you but for humanity. The world needs you to take this away. Show the world how to live. Leap of the Stairway. Cement is nothing like jumping and landing on grass. No, cement doesn't cushion. It doesn't feel right. It is just cold and firm. And when you hit it. Curl your legs and arms in, that way you may do a roll. In which instance the next time you bounce may land you on your neck thus killing you and completing your mission, with out having to sit in the hospital where people will cry for you. But then abandon you. It is better to die, than to be strapped in a chair for the rest of your life.