What is it about me that makes everyone lie to me? I am that gullible. or is it cuz the whole world know that i will get my hopes up only to be crushed. yeah so i dont care what you say to me but i cried today... Like full on cry. it was good but terrible at the same time. I didnt want to. but it made me realize that every time something good happens i will always be killed later for getting happy about something and then having it ripped away. Your jerks for playing me. but i guess i am the one to blame i should have known this was gonna happen. but see know one knows this. no one cares. I always seem to get shafted in that regard. I sit and listen for hours on end. and then when its my turn to talk just for a little bit no one wants to lend an ear... Some days i go for walks and just scream at the top of my lungs cuz no one else will listen. well at least i have beans. she listens and then she meows... Fuck.. Just whatever. you know what i dont give a shit. so just fuck me and get on with your fucking lives