Listening: spank the monkey music? Feeling: like shit ohyes. two entries in one day. You know what I realized? I am such a loser. I don't really do anything. I sat at home all today. And innocently enough. It sucks. Oh so bad. Depression sucks. I can't even function anymore. I don't know how to put a stupid background on this thing. So yeah, tomorrow's school. Is it not sad that i'm looking forward to getting out of here? My parents are yelling, for the first time in forever, I feel like spontaneously combusting, the first time since oh 2 seconds ago, and this song is making me sad. I have a newfound obsession with Nightwish. it isn't even funny. It's all I listen too. I'm wearing a pink shirt. Isn't that weird? Oh I am so random. You know what today feels like? "It's the last dance as the walls crumble around you." I love that quote. It's described the past week. Oh, how I miss my baby. It's my fault we're broken up, which makes it even harder to believe because I could have saved us. I hope we get back together. Now, back to happiness. I need money. Next year is spain... Im applying to a bunch of places. Problem is, i'm too young. So yeah, about this weekend. Went to al s, had lobster at my parents friends place, started a bonfire in a bus shelter. I'm considering going bunning. Haven't had substance in forever. I need to run away...