Tainted love- an understatement. I hate myself to such a delerious extent I often question my existance. Tainted- how about messed up. screwed around with. Love- Passion, desire, caring, comfort. Everything that was taken away from me. I haven't slept in a week. And someone I thought was a friend tried to even further take the little I had left away from me. I don't hate you alex. I simply pity you. Because at this rate, you can do whatever you want. But when you get old and die, you will be the only one to reap the benefits of your hard work. Because you are a lowlife, backstabbing asshole. I changed my mind: I don't wish you to death. I know that will happen naturally> I simply wish you a miserable life. I'll never know if my desires came true: I will not be there to find out. And shame on you "I'm going to go buy myself a new knife". How DARE you try to act as the victim! You're not the one that's hurting.You lost nothing. If you were willing to put my friendship on the line then I must have never meant anything. Everything that you think of me can be summed up in a word: WORTHLESS. You robbed me of love. Becuase I'm in love with Maria, and she's in love with me. It's NOT your business. I considered you a friend. The second I turn around, you backstab me like the liar you are. If you ever so much as look at me, I will spit in your face. If you try to talk to me, i'll step on your foot. If you look at Maria, EVER, I swear to everything I know, I will go ape on your ass. I have nothing to lose anymore. And it's all because of you. I have a scar now, Alex, that I named after you. Why? Because it was created through the pain and agony that you caused me. It's a scar that I won't regret, because I'd rather have torn flesh then spent any more time of my life on you.I bled. You don't even have the right to bleed because of this. It's your fault, Alex, that I am nothing. I hope I die, and it haunts you for the rest of forever.