Okay, so I wrote a letter to Zui (SG- www.suicidegirls.com) and she actually wrote me back. It made me incredibly pathetically happy,even though it was about five words. I spent the night at Marias, it was okay, exept 1. she refused to see my friends 2. she refused to return 'favors' when I strained my back and 3. she got back together with me and then cancelled it. I'm getting over it. Tomorrow I plan on buying a gram or so for just myself, so i'll feel better. Shit. Resolutions: 1-More party 2- Less complaining 3- More physical 4- Less mental 5- More acceptance 6- Less dependance 7- A book every 2 weeks. 8- Personal project- decide. 9- Find the defenition of happiness.