Got you now, didn't I? Yesterday Maria came over, we had one hell of a kickass day, She got her boots and she loves them. And I love her. I'm bored right now. I wish I had something to do or watch. Alyshia and Sarah are supposed to stop by. I think this is the first bland entry i've ever left. I'm so fucking moody it's unimaginable. Right now, i'm lonely. A few hours ago, I cancelled all my plans so I wouldn't have to see anyone. But i'm not lonely for people right now, I'm lonely for love. It's just hard, quite very hard, to know that It's utterly and completley my fault that I don't have "you". I'm going to do better. I promise. I hate having you in my arms and not being able to ensure anything anymore. Hold my hand and keep me close and i'll be the best person I can be. Show me that you care and I promise as long as you want me i'll be yours forever. It was my mistake, babe: i'm getting better and it's all for you. I love you xxx Spit you're my baby