I lost my last entry, again. I was in the midst of deleting comments and -boom- went the entry. I went on about Maria and how she is precious, and how I can deal with the ups and downs, yada yada, but I can't do thta anymore. I had a conversation with her that consists of a down. *sigh* It's such a wonder how my mood can go from high to the lowest of lows. I stayed home sick again today and so i've been thinking a lot. Silence isbeauty. I'm quite tired of being yelled at for no particular reason, ignored for no reason, it really IS making me sick. I'm getting a henna on friday. Those things are so hot. I can't decide what to get yet, though. Im going downtown with maria, she has to go to x2o and I want to go show her the fuzzy pink lingerie I explained in my last entry, I do believe. I need to find money somewhere, it's pathetic. Maybe i'll just marry rich, it's not like i'm going to be able to marry for love, because thats just such an impossible state. Man, I talk a lot of shit for someone who doesn't say anything.