i have been cryin like all night,i dont no wats wrong wiv me,i talked to dean and he wants to no my answer i said i want to tell him face to face..and i was meant to do that tonight but yer i didnt:( i dont no wat my answer is yet thou..i was talkin to dean tonight n he asked me to call shane cause they couldnt find him and he was drunk so yer i called him n he goes huz this n i go amber he goe hus that? oh yer i no where are ya? i said at home then fuk head david goes dont talk to that bitch...and the fone went dead...i hate him so much,all i want is my money bak from him n then i dont want anything to do wiv him..i never even do anything to him i was the one that he used to talk to about he gf probs.. anywayz shane just txt me off sumones fone and said to call him but i dont want to cause im to upset to talk to anyone:( i have tears runin down my face i feel like guys use, they treat me like im sum kind of toy they can play wiv when it suits them:( i just want someone to understand me and love me for hu i am and wats inside not wats on the outside... i fell like cutin my wrist or sumthing just to make the pain go sum where else but my heart... there are so many things i wish i could take back right now,lossing a really gud friendship, ever knowin that he liked me,fallin in love wiv him,waking up 2day,goin to sleep 2night, i dont really want to be here right now, well im out love amba xox dont take thing for granted!!