i hate this place sometimes i really do...one day everything is gud the next is seems to all fall apart..im sure everyone feels like this once n a while n u think im just beenin a stupid lil emo person but the thing is im not emo!yer i have my fair share of things to deal wiv but hu doesnt? i dont no wat i did to dean..like i really dont hes the one that tells me he loves me when im goin out wiv hes best friend,n kisses me i never did anything..n he hates me i dont no y i care cause hes the one hu cheated on me n yet i still care about him..i mean as in a friend...cause thats all i want from him..i love troy n i would never do anything to hurt him!last night he wanted to kiss me n i backed off but i have my reasons i just wish i could tell him...the thing is i dont want to let someone in n let them hurt me again... i really want to talk to someone a bout all this and the only person i can think about is chantel but she left today i miss her already..troy called me just b4 i was really upset n was like cryin but i didnt let him no..im so fuked up right now..all he said was if i cared wat he thourt i wouldnt do anything..then fukin dean goes hu u talkin to n troy said amber then dean goes y u talkin to the hoe! dean asked troy to dump me n said no but..then thing is i dont no wat he says about me behide me bak i hope he doesnt say shit cause think i really like him..its just hard to let him in...