fuk so much has happen...well skool has finshed for the year..so i went to the life center last night..wat fun that was the worst night eva! so we went to livo n picked up chantel at like 6 or sumthing n stayed at hj's for a bit...n truy came n he was wiv dean witch was odd cause he told me he wasnt going to be bak till monday..but it was gud cause i wanted to see him..he sat wiv us for a lil bit then told troy to go for a walk wiv him he came up to me n gave me a hug then told me he loved me n walked off still holding my hand like letting it slip away it felt odd.. anywayz after reece got bak wiv our piss..we walked over to the life center troy n dean were just in front of us n were like running away from us i was like wat the?....i didnt no wat was goin on ay..then we went n saw courtney. jess walked over to see dean n so did chantel so i was there wiv courtney..n troy was there n i go wats wiv u n dean n he goes sumthing big has happen n i go wat? n goes dont worrie about it so i stole hes smokes n he told me..he said see that girl over there she is having he baby! i was like wtf....wateva..so me n court walked over to see him but i couldnt say anything cause troy told me not to so yer dean asked if he could talk to me n yer he told me him self n was like urm wat do u want me to say he huged me n i like baked off n goes it happen when we werent goin out ..so dont act like that around me...so yer i walked off wiv chantel,jess n court to go find shane cause i needed smokes n piss...it kinda made me feel better but i drunk so much n i didnt even get tipsy or anything it wad kinda odd..cause like last time i had lil none n i was tipsy...anywayz later on i found shane,tazz david n all that..n talked to them it kinda made me feel better:)then reece's gf came n talked to me..she goes how do u feel n i said i dont no hey i dont no wat i should feel or say or even do! its so fuked up.she told me that if it was her she waould just leave it cause he not worth it but the thing is they dont no cause they have never been thou it themselfs..but she is so sweet... later even more i went n talked to dean..well kinda did anywayz he just said he didnt want anything to do wiv her or the baby so yer.... then courtney had to go i was like aww...i really needed her cause she is like the same age as me n yer i mean i love them all but they are all 13,14,15 later on the girl came up to me n asked if she could talk to me..i was like urmm yer i guess it was so odd i felt really fuked up ay thats when it really hit me n i started to cry...shane came over to me huged me i was like wat am i meant to do? we walked over to dean again n he asked if i was ok i looked at the groud..shane looked at me then goes to dean how do u think she is u cheated on her n now that chik is having ur baby!!!im so glad sumone had a go at him..cause i didnt really want to say anything to him...thankx shane...love ya xox well i didnt really talk to dean for the rest of the night ay...but hes "bitch" came n talked to me a few times...not that i really want to here anything she had to say! well i dont no wat else to write so im gonna go hope ya all gud..lovez ya all amba xox