Gah! It’s a clown car!! Me, Matthew and Nick all squished into the back seat. Me with the laptop on my lap, Matthew with his DVD player on his, and Nick trying to put his head down on the keyboard.. I’ve moved my legs so that one holds the laptop and the other is for Nick to lay his head on. I’m very uncomfortable.. Why couldn’t we have taken the Yukon?! I mean soo what if it costs more to drive, at least you won’t have crippled children by the time you get there and back.. We went to Belleville today to see my mom's family.. It was alright.. on the way we stopped at 2 Walmart's on the way, I bought movies and stuff. Supper was alright, as for presents i got 3 gift cards, 2 for Walmart, and 1 for chapters. And as a family we got Cranium. The time alone to myself, since my Aunt and Uncle have no personality what so ever.. I sat around thinking all day.. yet again, a bad thing, :( Here's one of my thoughts from sometime today, that I scribbled down on a piece of paper.. I’m at constant war with myself… I don’t like it. Look at what you’ve done to me.. You’ve turned a overly confident girl into a second guessing, insecure mess.. I hate it and I hate you! GAH! It makes me depressed and angry.. There's more, but I just want to stop thinking... But I can't.. Well that's all, I'm hoping to hang out with Wilson tomorrow sometime.. and possibly going shopping with my sister:) Night