I realize that this should have been posted sooner.. Ohh well… I was actually thinking of telling Adam yes… And just about to tell him… I mean he’s basically the opposite of the past guys I’ve dated, and such, so why not. As much as I haven’t really wanted a relationship for the past month or more, I actually thought about it. Even though everyone was telling me not to pick him and go for Jesse. But I dunno, Jesse’s… Jesse.(Nothing wrong with that, I just can't explain it..) And Dan, as much as we are a LOT alike, I don’t think he’s for me. Sure I’ll hang out with him from time to time, but I don't know, today while hanging out with him, Don, Brittany, then later Nikki and Cavell, it made me realize that nah, I don’t want him… I’m not sure who/what I want at the moment. Since reading the edit… I don't know, my thoughts have changed back to what they were before I thought about saying yes… Relationships are basically symbiotic … Weird way of putting it I know, but it’s true. All they basically are is a way of sharing with another. I mean, What is there really to a relationship? Adult relationships are all about getting married and having kids. Keeping the house running in order. Taking care of each other and your new family. And watching it all happen to your kids. But what’s there to high school relationships? He’s my boyfriend; I’m his girlfriend. Hang out. Go places, sometimes. Sit there and do nothing, or make out and become too physical too fast, and end up wrecking it, because there was nothing but the physical aspect. It’s kind of funny how some teenagers try to find relationships that fit the Adult description, I mean that they seem to think that it’ll last forever and shit. Nothing lasts forever… I just don’t understand High school relationships… I don’t think I ever have. But yet I’ve had 4… What is the purpose of High School relationships? To me I think it’s just a way of spending your spare time. And if it works out past high school, then go you, be happy, if it doesn’t it doesn’t, it’s not the end of the world, it was probably fun while it lasted. I don’t care anymore whether or not I have a relationship; sure they’re fun most of the time, but I don't know you always seem to worry more when in one. You know like what if now she doesn’t want me anymore, then the jealousy comes into play. So if your looking for a way to spend some time, and have fun, and stuff, I’ll be here. Not necessarily for you, but yeah. So there was my decision… *Shrugs* It doesn’t matter… I’ll be just fine, I’m all right being single, and sure it’s kind of boring at times, but… *shrugs* I’ll survive. Don’t feel bad. If you change your mind again, you never know… Well that’s all. I don’t have anything to add to that… Let me know what you think, that is if you read this...And want to let me know...