Good Lord, it has been a while. Not that anybody reads these anymore, but that's besides the point. Things have again changed dramatically since I last wrote in this. When I last wrote, I had thought things were on track, but it turns out that I was sadly mistaken. I was living on my own with a woman whom I was engaged to, and everything seemed to be going alright. But I guess I wasn't the boyfriend she expected me to be, and kicked me right the hell out, and left me for another man. In a fairly quick order. So, with no choice, I had to move back home, and I've been here for...a year now. It's funny, they say that "After a breakup, the loyal one stays single and deals with the damages until healed. The other one is already in a relationship". Ain't that the bloody truth. I was picking up the pieces and she was getting plastered at a bar with her new boyfriend. Whatever. It's been a year, and I'm good now. I've since gone back to school, I'm weeks away from getting my car back on the road, and I've been dating a lovely woman since January who is already making plans for her future with me. She's amazing. She made a joke a short time ago when we went to a screening of Captain Underpants, because Captain Underpants, about getting a copy for little ones in the future. So when I asked if she was planning that far ahead already, she reassured me that she was in this for the long run. I've never felt so honoured. But that's besides the point. Life doesn't suck, and we have to live each day to the fullest. I haven't always been the most shining example of that mentality, but therapy and building your life back up from nothing will do that. I also had a friend, which took my by surprise. This friend of mine, who was famously portrayed by Christopher Reeve in the late 70's and into the 80's named Superman. I know, I know, it seems blasphemous from a Batman fan like myself. But Superman taught me to walk with my head held high, and to be hopeful for the future. That one man can make a difference in the world around him, and to be the light in the darkness. So, here I am. The world needs positivity. Make a difference.

Well, shit. Time for an update, I suppose. It's been an interesting few years, to say the least. Things aren't even remotely close to what they were. For starters, I've worked many jobs since then. I've gone through several relationships since then, and I've even finally gotten my own place. I had my own car for a while too. It was fantastic. Job - wise, I worked for this duct cleaning company for a while, and then I was unemployed for a while before landing a job with an inventory counting company. From there, I got a job at a Pub here in town, and worked there for quite some time before I landed another full time job in Pickering. That didn't pan out too well, because my car ended up dying and I couldn't drive out there any longer. Luckily, my sister was working for a car dealership and got me a job there. They have adjusted my schedule since then, so I've picked up another part time job in the morning working at a Dog kennel. Working two jobs during the day, 6 days a week sucks ass, but it pays the bills so I can't complain too much. I'm on my own again though. I found a place a little North of where I was living for a decent price, and it's the entire top floor of this old Century home, built back in the late 1800's. I love it. It's in a tiny town with little to no traffic and a small population, which suits me just fine. I also had my own car for a while. My dad bought this '03 Pontiac Grand Am a few years back and ended up selling it to me when he bought himself a new Chevy Cruze. I loved that Grand Am. I learned how to drive in it, I had a lot of good times in it...I loved it. I drove it until last year, when the catalytic converter went, which wasa pricey fix that I just couldn't afford. So I sold her to a woman in North Bay, because their emission regulations are totally different than down here. Ah well. I've got to get up and face the day, however. I'll finish updating you later. I've got a whole mess of relationship stuff to get through, which is probably an entry unto itself. Heh.

Holy crap. Sitdiary works again. It has been a long time. I can't believe how much has changed since the last time I could log in here. I wonder if anybody checks it anymore. I doubt it, but who knows. I suspect I'll be writing in here more often, especially now that the bloody site finally works. I'll fill everybody in with the details at another time. Right now, I'm at work, so I'll have to check back later. It's good to be back.

Well, finally landed a permanent job. No more of this temp stuff. Thank God. The only unfortunate thing is that it starts early in the morning, and there's a lot of travel involved. BUT, I don't have to waste my own gas driving around, so it could be worse. Oh well. This also means I have less time on my hands for drawing, playing guitar and writing, but it is a sacrifice that has to be made. I'm just thankful that I've finally gotten some work after so long. Been scraping by the last half a year, so any income is welcome. But meh. Anyways, I'm off. Life sucks, Move on.

Seriously have to start updating this thing more often. Anywho... Not a whole lot has changed in the last few weeks since I last updated. Having a lot of downtime has actually contributed to my creativity, as I've found I've been getting a lot of writing, drawing and composing done over the last little while. Been drawing whatever comes to mind, wrote a few fanfics for a buddy of mine, and I'm working on a screenplay. At the same time, I'm writing a musical score for the old City of Evil movie that my buddies and I were planning to film once upon a time, which never materialized. We're still planning on doing it, but we'll see. Things with Kalynda are still great. I find it unfortunate that she goes to school in Etobicoke, if only because I can't see her as often as I'd like. But, I still talk to her as often as she can manage it (she IS a busy student after all), and I know that I'm missed. Luckily, I did get to spend a lot of time with her before she went back, and we spent the night together before she had to leave. Best. Night. Ever. But other than that...there is no update. That is SERIOUSLY everything that has occured in my life since the last time I updated. ...I need a job. ...and I want to see her. Oh well. Life sucks, Move on.

I seriously have to start updating this more often. Anywho...I can't really say that a whole lot of interesting stuff has happened over the last little while. Birthday was last week, which was a good day. Parents were out of town, but surprisingly, there was no big party at my place. Not a fan, so I ended up at my buddy Eric's place with Brando, and we hung out and went to Wimpy's and played Super Smash Bros. Brawl or Soul Caliber 4. T'was a good day. And I met somebody kinda special. But before that, Hannah. The girl from the last entry. Yeahh...no. After that good day I had, she went to the US of A to visit some family. I'm not entirely sure what happened down there, but she came back and suddenly had no interest. I didn't stop trying or anything, but it seemed like all hope was gone. She didn't want to make time to see me, and eventually just stopped talking to me altogether. Can't really say it came as a shock, given my track record so far. So, naturally, I started to feel a little inhuman again. I wasn't about to get hurt anymore, but something rather odd happened. A few weeks later, I was hanging out with Eric and Brando and Eric got a phone call. When the call was done, he asked me if I would do him a favour. Being a good friend, I said sure. And we drove to the GO Station to pick up his sister, who had recently returned from the US of A on a trip. And...is it wrong that I kinda thought the sister of one of my best friends was gorgeous? 'Cause she definitely was. Unfortunately, I didn't get a whole lot of time to introduce myself, although we talked in the car in the way back. And being the shy guy that I am, I had a hard time mustering up the courage to say anything. So...I just went home. Feeling as inhuman as ever. A few days later, on my birthday, I ended up back at Eric's place with Brando again, playing Super Smash Bros. and Soul Caliber 4 again. T'was a good day. I hadn't expected anything interesting to happen until Eric's sister wanders down into the basement where we were and starts playing. Awesome. So, we started talking a bit, and then...we ended up staying until after 3 in the morning. My God. I ended up leaving again before I could ask for her number or anything like that, leaving me frustrated. But I was determined to talk to this woman. After a quick add on FB, we started talking. Turns out we share mutual interests in film, music and a whole heaping load of other stuff. So...3 days ago we hung out again? And yeah. I didn't leave her place until 6 in the morning. T'was an awesome night. And we spent some time together again yesterday night, which again, was amazing. So natrually, I've started to feel a little more human. It is a nice feeling. But the kicker? My buddy Eric, and his mom, gave me the stamp of approval before we'd even met. How cool is that? Apparently I'm such a nice guy, they approved before we even met. That and she was hoping I'd talk to her earlier than I did. But shyness cannot be helped I guess. Oh well. So, I'm not going to ramble on any longer. And I'm not going to say I've hit the jackpot (although she doesn't like Twilight, so it helps), because I honestly have no clue what the future will bring. But I do hope that it turns out. We'll see. Life sucks, Move on.

Big changes, loyal readers. Things with Hannah (girl from last entry) are great. Things didn't work out for that double date with my buddy Ethan and his girlfriend because they had a bit of a spat and decided to bail. However, Hannah was determined at see me and asked me to go to the movies with her to see Green Lantern. Wow. A girl interested in me AND taking the initative? My God. I've hit the jackpot. We've seen each other a few times since then. I've met her parents, and as far as I know they approve. We've done the movie date and the dinner date (I took her to Jester's Court in Port Perry) and she's been to my home. Although my parents weren't awake at the time, my cat walked right up to her and sniffed her hand before standing still long enough to have behind her ears scratched before wandering off. My God. I've hit the jackpot. Not only is this girl interested in me, she has drive to see me, isn't afraid to show me off to her parents AND my cat approves. My cat HATES any girl I've EVER brought home. She still hisses at my buddy Brando when he comes over, and we've been friends for YEARS. My cat approves. AND? She hates Twilight. That makes me happy. We almost have the same taste in music, but whereas my taste is classic Thrash Metal, she likes the newer stuff. Which is fine by me. No worries. The ONLY downside is right now, she's in the States for a family gathering, which means I can't text her. We've still found a way to keep talking, but yeah. She tells me every day she misses me and whatnot. I miss her. I won't lie. But in my shoes, wouldn't you? Anywho...time to get out of here. Just finished working, and I'm tired as hell. Goodnight all. Life sucks. Find something in it worth living for.

Again, not a whole lot has changed. That friend I mentioned in the last entry? Yeah...no. She stopped talking to me as of today, for reasons unknown. Oh well. It doesn't really bother me all that much. Is that good? Or bad? I can never tell. Interesting night last night. I ended up at my buddy Ethan's place, in this tiny farm town about half an hour North of where I live. It was a small get-together, which was nice. A few of his friends joined us, and I brought my buddy Brando along, so we had a decent amount of people. Some guy showed up and got PISS DRUNK, and loud and argumentative, which was a total pain in the ass. HOWEVER, I did catch the attention of a certain girl who showed up, as she was a friend of Ethan's girlfriend. I noticed a stare across the bonfire, then a smile, then we were making fun of the loud, drunk guy, and before I knew it we were shoulder-to-shoulder the rest of the night just talking. And now I have a double date on monday with Ethan and his girlfriend, and this girl and I. Awesome. AND...that's my news. More odd jobs, but nothing as interesting as the ones in Peterborough. It was out in Pickering this time, just emptying out this bigass warehouse of car parts. This place had everything. If we had an engine, we'd have been able to build ourselves a giant Saturn/SAAB/Suzuki mash-up and rip across the 401 in our technological terror. Amazing. Anywho, I'm going to call it quits for now. Need to attempt to sleep. Farewell. Life sucks, deal with it.

Well, its been a while since I last updated, so I figured it'd be time for one. Not a whole lot going on lately actually. Been doing some odd jobs up in the Peterborough area, which is nice! I have come to love that town more than my own. The people are nicer, the women are prettier, and the gas is cheaper. Hell, even the AIR is cleaner. If I ever find somebody willing to move out that way, and I get myself a full-time job, I'd seriously consider moving up that way. Oh well. That could also be a long way off. In other news...well, there is no other news. Slowly been forcing myself to start talking to people again. Started talking to a girl I've not seen in some time and who I haven't spoken to in ages, which is nice. I'm hoping to get out of the house sometime. Being unemployed is steadily driving my nuts. Oh well. I think that'll do for now. Updates as they come, which is rarely I guess. Life sucks. Deal with it.

Well, here we are again. Unemployed. Turns out the previous job I'd been excited about was merely a temporary position, and as soon as the project I was working on was completed, I was no longer needed. Which unfortunately means that once again I'm out of work. Luckily, I know a guy who knows a guy who knows a guy that runs a landscaping company and is looking for workers. Only thing is...its two hours from here. Oh well. I'm going to do what I have to. Plus it'd be good to get away from this sinkhole of a town. There isn't much here anymore that's even remotely positive. I know that if I don't leave soon, my sister's boyfriend and I are going to come to blows. To be honest...I can't stand the sodding prick. I've never known anyone so scheming and manipulative and arrogant in all my life. Other than She Who Shall Not Be Named (see Entry 210). But that's besides the point. I've never wanted to beat someone senseless so bad in all my life. Well, that's not entirely true. I've been angry at people before, but nothing compares to the pure unbridled rage I bear for this sodding prick. I've never been so angry at one person in all my life that I've almost had to force myself to start breathing again. My fists were clenched so tight I had veins bulging down my arms...it was insane.Oh well. On the Girl Front...nothing new. Carolyn got herself a boyfriend (not sure when), but strangely I wasn't affected nearly as much as I have been in the past. Could just be that I wasn't surprised, given my record over the last year. Meh. I've learned to not care so much. It'll happen when it happens. After all... Life sucks. Deal with it.

Well, it most certainly been an interesting month. Finally found some work. Its temp work unfortunately, but the contract doesn't seem to have an end date, which means soon enough I'll be getting a regular paycheck. Which is also good because my phone is about to be cut off. That's about it though. Things are up and down as usual. For any of you who care, Carolyn is back. Unfortunately, with this new job, I lack transportation. Which means when I finish at 3, I have to wait until amost 6 for my ride to come pick me up. So to pass the time I usually walk from work to the Walmart where I used to work, which kills about 45 minutes on a good day. Anyways, when I got there, I sat down at McDicks and got myself something to eat, and didn't see anybody there that I still talked to. So I texted Carolyn, with my hands shaking. You see, up until this point, I'd been working up the nerve to start talking to her again. And I finally did. Turns out she had to work anyways, so she was coming in already. BUT, she came in half an hour early and nearly shouted my name when she first got my text whilst standing in Tim Horton's. No lie. Her words. So the next half an hour we spent chatting and wandering, as though no time had passed between the last time we spoke and yesterday. T'was nice. My hands have yet to stop shaking. Oh well. They'll stop. But that has been my update for the month. I'm sure there'll be more to come. I just sometimes forget I still had this thing. So yeah. I update it sporadically at best, but I'll try from now on to update more often. Not like anybody reads this anyways. Mostly all anonymous comments. Meh. This is me not caring! Have fun y'all. Life sucks. Find something in it worth living for.

Ooookay. So this girl I was interested in told me straight up a few weeks back that she didn't want to see anybody because she was getting ready for school and stuff, and once school finally started she didn't want any distractions. Right away I could smell the bullshit, but that could've been my cynical nature getting the better of me. Tonight, I confirmed what my Bullshit-o-meter was telling me all along. For about half an hour straight I had to listen to this wench ramble on and on about "omg this guy is lyke such a nice guy! were just taking things slow but he makes me sooo happy :)" ... ...seriously? (And who talks like that?!) Nappa: Vegeta! What does the Scouter say about the bullshit level? Vegeta: It's over 9000!! *crushes scouter* Nappy: What?! Over 9000?! There's NO WAY that can be right!! Yeah it reminded me of Dragonball Z, as most things tend to do. I'm not entirely sure why, but it made me laugh. But anyways, the conversation continued on from there, and ended up with me laughing, getting VERY sarcastic, and just leaving. I'm sick and tired of the bullshit. Oh well. What can ya do? Not much unfortunately. So there's no point in fretting about it. No whining. Whining about problems doesn't make them go away. They're still there when you're done whining.Life sucks. ...oh you know the rest. EDIT: By the way, whoever "A" is, you have been added.

Anger is pretty much gone. And when I say pretty much, I mean an identical situation to the previous entry happened, yet again. At least this one saved me the time and was over and done with fairly quickly. I don't seem to understand this rotten luck with everything lately, but something needs to be done. This has GOT to be fixed. I just don't know how. I need to fix something. I will agree that something needs to be fixed, but I don't know what. I don't know what the problem is, or how to fix it. I'm running around in circles trying to wrap my head around what's been happening. So confused. I haven't slept in days. I managed to eat the other day, so I've gotten some form of nourishment at least over the past few days. I feel like I'm wasting away. And the only person who can fix it, is me. I'm not going to spend any more of my time whining. My dad told me when I was young that the only person you can count on is yourself. People will come and go. People will always let you down. People will say pretty things to your face and curse you behind your back. The only way you can accomplish anything, is to do it yourself. Find your problem, pound it senseless and render it irrelevant. Which is what I plan to do. Life sucks. Deal with it.

Time has a way of taking time, Loneliness is not only felt by fools. Alone I call to ease the pain. Yearning to be held by you, alone, so alone, I'm lost Consumed by the pain, The pain, the pain, the pain... Won't you hold me again? You just laughed, ha, ha, bitch! My whole life is work built on the past, But the time has come when all things shall pass, This good thing passed away... "In My Darkest Hour" - Megadeth 'Nuff said. When something seems to good to be true, it usually is. I won't go into detail, but that's basically it. As per my luck lately, everything I've been rambling on about in the last bunch of entries has been rendered...irrelevant. So...here I sit, brooding. Ever the dark philosopher. I can't eat...I can't sleep. Nothing seems...important. I don't know. I'll be fine in a day or two of job hunting and sleeping. Fortunately, this dark philosopher never stays brooding for long. When I see a problem, I beat it down. I crush it's skull...render it non-threatening. So shall it be done now. I just...can't believe it. That would be JUST MY LUCK. Another sleepless night, Another piece of my heart discarded. Back so square one... Here I go again. Life sucks... 'Nuff said.

No worries, loyal readers! Things haven't changed much, yet again. Although this whole unemployed thing is getting to be a REAL pain in the ass. I've been job hunting for a while now, and I actually got a call back from a place I applied to. They said they're interested and I had an interview, and the woman who interviewed me said she wanted me to start soon, she just has to wait for approval from her boss. So hopefully all goes well. But no car accidents or foolishness like last time. I got a phone call from my lady-friend the other day to drive her to school. Which was awesome because it happened to be on one of the days where I actually had the car and was able to get myself around. So I picked her up, and she ended up just having to go in to pick up a form, and then we hung out all day. Which was AWESOME. It's been quite some time since I got to see her last, which sucks. But unfortunately she has a much busier life than myself. So I tell myself: "Man...you still get to see her. She always wants to see you. What's the sense of bitching about it?" And it makes me feel better. I still miss her lke crazy, but it helps. I can't help but smile when I think about her though. Whenever I see her the first thing she always does is throw her arms around me and just holds onto me for a while. That and she's cuddly as hell. I've never been cuddled so much in all my life. And I LOVE that. Although some guy has been horning in on my Kool-Aid, which pisses me off. The fact that they used to date doesn't help, and it kinda makes me want to punch his face into the pavement, although I can't do that because that'd be bad. And the LAST thing I want to do is let jealousy make me say something stupid, because that's what managed to drive away any other girl I ever cared about. But at the same time, I know she likes me and nobody else, and she'd tell me that I've got nothing to worry about. So I'm staying as positive as I can about all this, although I'm still gritting my teeth and clenching my fists. Only difference is, I have somebody to grab my arm and hold my hand, to make that fist go away. Life sucks...find something in it worth living for.

Well, this whole feeling human for a change and being positive for once is still new. It's taken some getting used to...especially with the week it's been. I got into a fight last week, almost got into a fight at work the next day, lost my job on monday and got into a car accident last night. The fight was kinda funny. Three stoned kids kicking garbage cans over around my area while I was walking around, and I asked if they were going to pick it up. They decided to get in my face about it and start throwing punches, soooo yeah. The almost fight at work was between me and the master of douche-baggery. He started making fat jokes about me and oinking at me when I walked by, so I called him out on it, and told him to stop acting like such a child. The following monday I was approached by my boss, who told me that "things just weren't working out", like he was breaking up with me or something. At least he waited until the end of my shift. So I grabbed my coat, signed out and left. No sense getting upset about it. Then last night, I was driving with my lady-friend, we hit a patch of ice and skidded into a ditch. Thank God there was a guy around with a rope and a truck, or I'd never have gotten out of there. But there wasn't any damage to my car, asive from a few scratches and dirt smears, so I got off lucky. So it's hard to stay positive after that. But my lady-friend came back to town after being in Montreal for New Years, and I spent the last 24 hours with her non-stop. Which was amazing. I picked her up last night and we went from there. Ended up at my place, and she crashed for the night, sharing my futon with me. Best sleep ever. Hands down. And then we spent most of the day together today. Aside from me picking my dad up from work, applying to some jobs and eating dinner (all in all about 2 hours). As soon as I was done, I picked her back up and we spent the rest of the evening together. It's been a long time since I've been this happy. My buddy Brando laughs at me and tells me this is what it's like to feel human for once. I just laugh with him and agree. I don't know what the future holds...but I'm facing it with a new outlook. Life sucks...find something in it worth living for.

Well, things have changed AGAIN. Things with Danielle are still sour. We put up with each other well enough, considering that her best friend Marsha and my best friend Brando are dating. Which usually means I've got to be his wingman and keep Danielle from interrupting whatever it is they plan to do. But whatever. I'm not caring a whole lot about that anymore. Raquel and I no longer speak. I kept trying, and trying, and when I seemed to be getting somewhere, she found herself a boyfriend along the way. So I snapped, and as a result we don't talk. I even saw her at the mall a while ago, but she put her head down and kept walking. So whatever. I'm beyond the point of caring. But that's not the point of this entry. The point of this entry is to say that I'm done feeling sorry for myself. The only person who can change all this nonsense is me, and that is my focus. I didn't care anymore! - Vegeta, "Dragonball Z" Couldn't have said it better myself. Besides, a surprising turn of events lately has helped me get over this slump and realize what I truly want. Sometimes the best person for you isn't the one who flaunts it, and is always up front about it. Sometimes the best person for you is the person waiting behind that person, praying you'll notice them. Such is the case lately. In a few days, I've been knocked on my ass and forced to take a good look at what is really important, and I have a special someone to thank for that. She just showed up, out of the blue...and really got me thinking. And now, admittedly, I'm crazy about her. Anybody who reads this on a regular basis knows how often I say stuff like that, but this time, it'll stick. I couldn't imagine anybody who I could possibly get along with more. So there you have it. Normally, about this time I'd say "Life sucks...move on.", but I'll leave you with this: Life sucks. Find something in it worth living for.

Well, things are much different now than the were before. First off, things with Danielle are no more. I have this uncanny ability to just say what I'm thinking without passing it through what I call my "Vocal Filter". In other words, I kinda blurted some stuff out a few times when she was texting other guys, or we were comparing how hard our jobs were (she words at McDicks, I work at a warehouse). So that kinda caused a rift between us, and her douchebad of an ex-boyfriend was only too happy to fill the void. She went with him and a few of his friends to his cottage for a drunk-fest for an entire weekend a few weeks back, which was the beginning of the end. She came back and wasn't interested in me at all after that, and wasn't really talking all that much. So one night I told her straight up how I felt and asked her straight up what was happening with her. And she told me she saw me as a friend and nothing more, and nothing was going to happen between us. Ever. So all this time, she'd been talking to the douchebag more and more, and talking to me less and less. Completely unaware, I was sure things were still okay. Until that day. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that one, but whatever. She wants to be like that, good for her. I'm done. And Raquel has been pretty dumb lately too. Been trying to hang out with her for a bit, but it seems like she has an excuse for every day I ask. Last time I asked, she was meeting some guy named Chris. So I kinda snapped, and told her to stop making excuses and just tell me she doesn't want to see me. And if she wanted to ditch me for Chris, that she could have fun with that, and also to stop talking to me. Kinda harsh I guess, but I was definately not in the mood. I dunno. Just kinda angry as of late. But whatever. Oh well. Life sucks. Move on.

Ooooookay, another bunch of updates. First off, I got myself a JOB lol. It's nothing special, but i'm a General Labourer for a small company in Pickering called Lev-Co. And while I'm doing more GRUNT work, they're training me to be the Shipper/Receiver, because their current person in that position is leaving in a month for MATERNITY leave. So I need to brush up on my computer skills again, and get my head around the SYSTEM, and I'll be good to go. So I was only out of the job for...2 and a half weeks I think. So Wal-Mart can SUCK it. But things with Danielle are great as well =D We've been talking non-stop pretty much. Well, stopping only to SLEEP really. In my new job I can't get away with TEXTING her as much as I used to at Wal-Mart, but I STILL manage to get away with it somehow, even though my supervisor is really observant when it comes to me trying to SNEAK a text. But she doesn't really MIND all that much, so long as I get DONE what I need to get DONE. So Danielle and I are great! People have again been bugging me about whether or not we're DATING, which I can't help but smile at. She knows I'd treat her good, and I know she wouldn't let me down, but we're just taking things slow at the moment. Because we both KNOW my chances are good =D Sooooo we'll just have to see, but I think things will work out for the best. I hope so anyways lol. EDIT: FIVE MINUTES LATER. Oh yeah, I almost forgot lol. www.silvertone00.webs.com Check it out.

Okay I'm BACK! With PLENTY of updates lmao. First off, I have my SOUL back. Meaning, I'm no longer working for Wal-Mart. About a MONTH ago, they called me to the back and COACHED me for some pretty GARBAGE reasons, like I'm LAZY (yeah right), I bring my PERSONAL LIFE to work (bulls--t), and I bring the rest of the team down with me whenever I work (more like get everybody started!). So i bit down on my tongue to keep myself from saying something STUPID, and accepted their judgement. As stupid as it WAS. But then again, I'll say a week and a half ago, they coached me again for the SAME reasons, which again is BULLS--T! I actually started working HARDER since the last coaching, so they're full of s--t. And this time they're trying to tell me they had me on CAMERA slacking off for an HOUR and a HALF. But that night I was working on my OWN, so it's their word against MINE. My manager gave me a few days to think about whether or not I WANTED to stay with the COMPANY. So after those few days I told her straight to her FACE that I believed I was being trated unfairly and I'd stay if they would show me some PROOF of all the charges arrayed against me. They couldn't PRODUCE said proof, so I handed my manager my vest, badge and discount card and told them straight up I refuse to work for a company that treats their EMPLOYEES like CRAP. And I've been free ever since, job hunting like a MOFO. But MEH. Musically, I'm BACK. Like I never left. I've sat down and written a few songs recently, and I've put music to one, which sounds really GOOD. Considering it's been YEARS since I've actually sat down and written ANYTHING. I've been pushing as fast as I could to make it faster and heavier, which I'm finding I'm getting BETTER. Solos need WORK though. I was finally getting into it before I STOPPED, so I'm gonna have to really start working on that again. I've been pushing myself, but It's a work in PROGRESS. I've mastered Tremolo-Picking, I've been working on my Tapping, and picking out a rapid succession of notes as fast as I can. Like I said, its a work on PROGRESS. But meh. I'll keep it up. Things with Danielle are good though, which is AWESOME. We've been talking pretty much non-stop, and we actually kinda had a FIGHT. Surprisingly enough lol. Me, being the JEALOUS guy I am, was put into a bad mood when she stopped to talk to some of her guy friends when we were hanging out. SOOO...yeah. I was in a bad mood, but I didn;t say anything, leading her to think that I WASN'T excited to see her. I WAS, don't get me wrong, but I was just being DUMB lol. So we talked about it after and we're GREAT now! But us talking NON-STOP and the fact that we had a FIGHT and we're better now has led just about EVERYBODY I know to assume that we're a COUPLE. I keep telling them that we're not, but they REFUSE to believe me. Everybody TELLS me how happy we seem together, and I've told her flat out that I'd be the LUCKIEST guy ever if I was her MAN. Which is true. But MEH. I'm off for now. More updates as they come.