Written a while ago, Updated a bit. 20 Things I can’t tell you. FYI it’s directed solely at one person. 1. I’m hoping this is the last of my anger towards you. I hope that after writing this you no longer have any effect on me. But I doubt it. 2. You’re a fucking asshole, but you probably already knew that. 3. I don’t hate you exactly I’m more angry with myself for trusting you, when clearly you didn’t give a shit. 4. I don’t miss you, never have exactly, just the guy I thought you were. Man was I wrong. 5. You just don’t understand things do you?! 6. I feel I should thank you for getting him to leave me alone. 7. You’ll never hear me say that because you’re not worthy of it in my books. Not after all that bullshit. 8. Have you ever just told the fucking truth? I mean seriously! Not just fucking making up lies and telling everyone different things. 9. I thought I loved you, I guess I was just trying to cover up my pain and insecurity by convincing myself I felt that way. 10. You’re such a fucking horn dog! You fuck face! 11. I can’t believe I thought you cared! 12. I want to slap you across the face. Maybe I will… 13. Man was I a fool I thought you meant everything you said. 14. You’re such a fucking liar. 15. I hope you get attacked and seriously hurt… Okay so maybe I don’t, but I still hope you get hurt in one way or another. 16. I can’t believe I thought you were different from all the others. Sadly for me, you weren’t. 17. Everytime I see you it hurts, but just tell myself I’m being stupid and should get over it. I just can’t seem to get past the pain. 18. You know it hurts worse to be lied to right? You could have just explained your fucking reason. That fact bothered me a little too, but I got over it, my feelings for you out weighted that. 6 fucking degrees of separation!! 19. You can ask me about the current guy in my life, but won’t even bother saying ‘hi’ back to me?!?! 20. I’m sure you can tell this is about you. That is if you ever read this. I hope you do, and I hope it makes you feel like an even bigger asshole!