i feel so lost and im starting fights left and right and i cannot take it. sometimes all i want to do is just sit and cry for hours. my feelings are going right one minute,left another, and south the next. i really don't know what i am doing. i just want to be out of this place i am in and get over it. i'm no fun to be around anymore and i can tell that people are getting annoyed with me. i wish i could just shut up and observe but i find myself constantly making pointless words. i am talking but im not saying anything. i know before i say..."it's only highschool..but then, is it only college? only your job? no worries? not at all.. things matter,everything matters and i cannot seem to grasp that. im such a screw up.sorry can't fix everything and its not really fixing anything right now. doesnt everyone want to be my friend now? jsafhusdyfdn seuryewuyr iryuieuorjdfshjksdfiosdfskldfklsdfjklsdjfklsdfj forget it...