well, today sucked so bad. i'm still going to the boy's night out/working title show at Alley Katz which is totally rad..and i'll still be "skipping" school on Friday but now i don't think i can go to the free yellowcard/soco/carbonleaf/etc show at longwood college. im so EFFING pissed. i don't want to talk about it now but maybe later.its just some people are so hard to understand and really,i feel like im right but who knows. but there is still a chance i can go. life is so dumb..what is the puropse? live. die. piss people off. make it better...only to do it again. make money at some lame ass. job and retire then die yes die. i have no idea what comes after this life so i dont know if i'll have a chance to do it over? for now, i'll say i have one life to make my point. I WANNA GO OUT LIKE A ROCKSTAR! okay maybe just in a band.that would be amazing.i want some kid to feel like i feel before i go to a show..totally amazing and excited and make them want to make music.sometimes i really wonder why i try so hard for grades and at school and to be good when what does it matter in the end? who knows? does anyone care? really..comment on what you think about why people should do good when no one even appreciates it anymore?i feel so lame you get the picture. maybe i can inspire someone to do good..once i do this i think i will be happy. anywho, i think im just too upset and my thoughts are all over the place. someone comment...bye kiddos..hope everyone is having a better day/life than me. ps- there is so much more to this and my life and this isnt something petty eventhough you may think im dumb to get all worked up over a show but i may also be loosing friends and i love all my friends and i think that is what hurts the most. ahhh i have to go. -JessY-