well, today was...interesting. i saw a wandering cat on the way home from school and he looked lost and confused. it made me unhappy to see him looking so misplaced and i saw another cat..it look dead but maybe it was just sleeping. i think that was cat number one's mother. if that is the case..i really hope the cat was sleeping. you know, you may be thinking..its only cats that are not even yours..why are you so conserned? well, everyone/thing has feelings and people should have empathy for people and their situations. that is very important. some people really amuse me.today in gym we played bad mitten (sp?) and the kids i was playing with were making fun of me. how lame. i am usualy pretty good in gym and activly participate but bad midden is just not my game i guess. i did get better by the end though. it is a fun game. sorry, this ties into how people amuse me. i am usually very quiet on my bus..i just kind of stare out the window and tune everyone out. the kid i was playing bad midden with had no idea i rode his bus. as a matter of fact..not many people did. only few even know my name. this doesnt really hurt my feel goods because i dont make an effort to really talk or be friends with these kids and neither do they..that had no point. i am sorry. but anyways, im finding myself making pointless comments. really, its becomming a problem. i just wish i could shut up more and not be so..wordy? i dont know what im looking to say here. im not making pointless things really but im not saying much with my words. i feel as if i should only be putting well thought out well written thing into the world but then again..some of the best things are accidents. serendipity-a fortunate accident. today i was wishing i had a better picture of myself and i realized that i cannot get one. i cannot change what i look like and neither can a camera lens..maybe we just need to accept that a move on. here is a part from the perks of being a wallflower that i will describe: i didnt like how he thought the way he took the picture of sam is what made her beautiful..he should see her for who she is. not through a stupid lense. well kids, im out. take care <321 "pull the trigger and the nightmare ends"