it's that holiday time of the year again and i'm feeling the pressure... i think that's one of the things i hate most about this time of year...the pressure. i'm also having to deal with trying to come up with some way to get myself a car and pass all my exams (which i know i can do), but i just feel overwhelmed and bitchy. it doesn't help for me to bitch at the one person i really love, but i do and i've just been feeling like shit too much recently. i called my dad today so i could ask him to come look at a car with me and my mom sunday...i got his voicemail...i hung up. i'm leaving to go visit my grandma tonight and i'm really not looking forward to going. i also have come to hate money..and i'm really starting to hate the cycle of life which scares me and excites me a little all at the same time. i know that i'm hell to put up with