Yeah.....poopy....yeah....I hurt....that's the only way to describe it I think. Hurt...yeah..that's it. 'Cuz see...I was with Suisse right, and then Chelsea and Emily were saying that it made them "uncomfortable" when they were there with us. But then I was talking to Amy and Holly and they said we didnt' even hang on each other at all...but ya know. Anywho, and then Chelsea was like...getting really worked up about it or something..I don't really know she was talking to Suisse about it. And then someone said that her and Ber felt like they couldn't talk to me when he was there with me but I dont' know why..Holly would just come up and pounce on me anyways. So yeah, I didn't want to like make all my friends mad at me or anything because I love them all and all that. But then Suisse said Chelsea was telling him that she thought that we needed to "back off" a little. so then he was telling me that either we should just like..barely even say hi in the halls and just act like we did before when it was just us together so we won't offend anyone on the swim team or like..break it off all together. But he said he didn't want to break it off totally. But in my opinion...if you're gonna be with someone....be with them...if that makes sense...so yeah. Ya know, whenever it had those questions in quizzes if you've ever been in love..and I always put no..and I don't know if I would say that I love him exactly..but I think this is the probably the closest I've ever come...or whatever...but yeah.....it's all just stupid..love sucks