Befuddled is a funny word. Some kid is eating a poptart! mmmm.....I want a poptart! This week I've been really tired. So I haven't been thinking that much. But when I do think, it's usually about the same things...maybe I'm getting dumber. Anyway, I'm gonna be 16 soon! yay!! I think it would be fun to make out on a waterbed!!! lol. I thought of that like yesterday I think...no...Tuesday. I want to put a cool picture on the top of my diary. But every time I try to put it there, it just has an x in a box. And it won't show it. It's bugging me. I dont' know why it won't let me put it there. Stupid thing. What am I doing wrong??? I don't know why I'm putting this in a paragraph type thing. I guess I'm just entertaining myself. For some reason, this week, I've been really down on myself. Usually, I don't really think I'm pretty or great or anything, but I don't think I'm ugly or a horrible person either. But this week, I've just been finding things wrong with myself. When I do think, that's what I've been thinking about....a lot. I've thought about other things too, but they're usually the same thing also. I wish my dad would break a horse. It bugs me soooo bad!!! We have like 14 horses, and he wont' break any because he has no time and he won't let me do it because he's afraid I'll "get hurt". I mean, yeah, horses can hurt you if they kick you and all. That's obvious. But he expects me to like them and want to do all this stuff and be involved with them, yet he won't let me ride and all that. It's annoying. These people get to have a party....outside of our door. How annoying. They're loud. Well, I'm running out of things to ramble on about...