Today S said he liked me, and I know it wasn't 'like' in the way that I used to hope for, but it's one of the nicest things I've ever heard him say, so I thought I would make note of it. I'm not sure if I should really be complemented by it though, because from my experiences he is extremely mean/rude to the people he really likes, so telling me he likes me can't be such an excellent thing, right? Nothing has been sinking in lately, it's all just bobbing around on the surface. How can I collect the shells if they never surf up onto the beach? How can I kill this awful cliche writing technique I never fail to use?