I love Ryan... and I'm glad that he called- it's wonderful just hearing his voice. But he had to work yesterday /and/ today and with school.. he should be more concerned with sleeping than anything. And Lindsay's party. I don't want to argue it with him- it's his choice, after all- and God knows I'd love to be with him outside of school... but he should go to it just 'cause he hasn't seen everyone there for so long (because he left Dover). Blast. I'm happy there's a possibility we'll be able to get together Saturday night =) but still.. I'm so tired. But so afraid of closing my eyes. Nightmares coming back, much?