I hate school. It makes me want to slit my wrists. Honestly.. I was fidgeting all day because I can't staaaaand it anymore.. Then again. That could be the 3 smokes I shared with Shannon this morning waiting for Ryan. Gross, I know. I hate smoking.. Kyden was high, though. It was amusing. I finally figured out this stupid fucking fossil poster for Biology. English was good. We talked about how our school is stupid because we're not supposed to smoke out front anymore. And how they can't suspend us for having marijuana unless it's in baggies because that means we're selling it. Lunch.. I want to kill Carly. Courtney wasn't glaring at me, which was amazing... CAPP. Again with stupid classes. I guess Tyler cheated on Kylee. And we got into this mad fight with Dane because he's all "once a cheater, always a cheater". I guess it's true.. just look at Coop. He cheated on his last couple of girlfriends and eight months in with Kylee.. ...what an ass. We found one of Mr. Hampton's rad markers.. the washable ones. Writing "No worries, it's washable!" on the tables, chairs, and people's arms. Joy. I'm not going to see Donna or Terry anymore. Just monthly checkups. They think I'm fine and things are going well, even though I totally can't see it at all. Fucking tired. Too scared to sleep. I'm crazy. Ryan's coming over later. Woooo. It was pouring earlier. It's supposed to rain tomorrow, too. And then clear up Thursday and we're supposed to get a storm all next week. Yes, I'm a freak. A pay a little too much attention to Colette. Go on, just say it. You need me like a bad habit. One that leaves you defenseless. Dependant. And alone...