I feel sick. When don't I feel sick. I have a doctor's appointment in 10 minutes or so. Joy to the fucking WORLD. I treat Ryan horribly. Everything always fucks up. I thought he was going to break up with me this morning.. the whole "Can we go somewhere? I need to talk to you.." Ugh... it wasn't anything horrible. He just wants to know what's going on. I don't even know what the fuck's going on nevermind trying to explain it to him. I'm pretty sure I blew my English and Biology tests. Lunch, Ryan and I sat outside. Shaking Brisk bottles is more fun than you'd think!! It gets all foamy and gross looking. Great. CAPP was gay. We have to do a stupid sheet on how we look at ourselves, what we think.. and self esteem and whatnot. I'm going to fail that class. Because the work is stupid and the teacher should be shot. Jax and I went up to the library to edit our tape and eat M&M's.. it was a joyous occasion? When we got back, we got a massive lecture on how God is not a part of anything. All because Megan said "My God, what the hell.." Hung around the bus stop with Ryan after school and rode the bus with him to Country Club... guh I feel horrible because we can't get together tonight. But tomorrow! =) Except I really wanted him to go to Lindsay's... I haven't talked to Courtney all day, save for when she bitched because I'm not working tonight so she has to do prep with Asia ALONE. And yet she's not working next week so the situation's massively reversed. Guh. It won't be long until you're gone into the night. You won't have to paint my face with coverup.