.. I'll just take it out on myself... [takeitoutonmeinsteadcutmelooseasthisdripfeedbled..] I don't know what to do.. I spent the last hour or more in the bath, thinking things over. Then I went outside and sat in the rain. [thisisapermanentsolutiontoatemporaryproblem] Worst thing is, I can't even talk to Ryan about it. Something about if he finds out I cut while he was away, he'll do it for demonstration? I can't handle that... I'm so fucked up