Another tragic case of feeling bruised and broken.. -- Well. I've changed the password yet again. So now only McL reads these. Which helps me none 'cos you're LEAVING ME. Tear. =P Last night.. hmm.. Ryan told me how he feels. It was so sweet.. and I wanted to just tell him everything, but I'm so scared I'll fuck it up somehow. I'm posititve I'm in love with the kid; I mean, how could I not be? He makes me laugh, and I'm so much happier when I'm with him. And he's so sweet (You're mine, I'll kill you!). But I'm afraid that once I tell him, I'll do something really stupid. Like what? God knows. I'm just prone to doing stupid things. I think he.. sort of knows I care. Or maybe he thinks I just said it 'cos he said he loved me. Well, no. I wanted to tell him after we spent Saturday together 'cos it was just.. super. I don't know. We don't even have to be doing anything; so long as I'm with him it's fine. It just feels weird 'cos it hasn't even been a month, right? Or maybe 'cos I fucked up last time by telling Andy I loved him. And I'm not sure if that was entirely true. Perhaps it was more the idea of being in love with him that was so great. It's not the same with Ryan, and I just want to make sure. The last thing I want to do is hurt him.. This may seem corny to you, McL.. but you asked. And it's easier to type out then say. A /lot/ easier..