I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm afraid of everything. It scares me to fucking sleep alone in my room at night. I have to make sure my closet doors are shut and that I have a light on, and now I'm even leaving my door open. It's getting to the point where I don't even want to move I get so scared. I think I need to have somebody with me all the time now to feel safe. Which is dumb because I shouldn't even be in this bad of shape, considering NOTHING even happened to me. ...ugh. Happy friday. You can bet your bottom dollar that I'm not doing anything this weekend. I wouldn't go to Nick's party with Brittany so Aundreya is going and they're gonna have loads of fun, and it's funny cuz she's trying to make me jealous and the thing is...I don't care. I don't want to keep her from having other friends. Friends are a good thing to have...no doubt about it. mkay. I guess I'm pretty much done. Nothing really to write lately except for me being such a pussy all the damn time. Have a great weekend.