Bad thoughs.

by nightshade
Feeling: demonic
I am thinking about smoking. I am thinking about dieing. I am thinking about not going. I am thinking about killing. I am thinking about him. I am thinking about me. I am thinking did he ever love me. I am thinking will he care. I am thinking does he notice. I am thinking happy i could be. I am thinking i want to take opium again. I am thinking about being a druggie. But i am not going to because i have to fight for my life. And i am fighting for him. I just wish he knew how much i cared. I love him. Too bad he didnt and mabe never felt the same. My mind is made up. Fight to stay alive and save him and help him out in the future. Just hop he knows exactly how i feel. I am hoping to see him. I am hoping not to go to jersy. I am hoping to stay by his side as a friend. I am hoping to be with him for a long time. I am hoping to live past the age of 18. I am hoping to live past the age of 21. I am hoping to live past my parents. (SO I CAN SHIT ON MY FATHER's GRAVE) I am wishing. to see him........ Because i still love him.............................
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ok then just reverse the zephyr cross. it is so boring in the locker room.
u sure about that? because I think he does... but oh well
Nono sweetheart u didnt offend me, just worried me about....u aight?
i know you meant no offence, i was just stating my opinion, i do that a lot lol
[Anonymous]
hey lub....im sorry your going through such a hard time...i know how it feels...and if you keep holding on things will eventually get better but then they will get worse but then things really -like they say the 3rd times the charm- start to get better...it does happen trust me...luv ya!