K...so that whole new guy thing didnt work out....cuz he thought i was still 'secretly dating' my ex boyfriend, n i flipped out at him n i was like "k, buddy u get mad at me for not fully trusting u, although i sortve have a right to assume guys will cheat concidering its happened so many times to me before, and ur the one who thinks im secretly dating my ex boyfriend, uve really got somethin shoved up ur ass" n then we yelled at eachother for a while n decided (obviously enough) that we werent gunna work out...i'm sorta relieved...he lived so far it was so much of a hassle...and im proud of myself..i didnt even cry or anythin, i just went n talked on the phone n had a great day the next day ... =)...and...i'm actualli going back into one of those childhood crush stages. havent had just like a "crush" in a while, its just been like i like u, u like me, lets date...but now i like this guy n he doesnt know i like him n i get all like giddy when he comes around haha...n todai i couldnt stop smiling just cuz he walked by me in the hallway n tapped my shoulder...i'm so gay...but iunno it feels kinda cute to have one of these lil childhood crush thingies...its been like 4 years since ive had one lol...let the daydreams begin... -Starry Eyes