I FUCKING HATE MY BOYFRIEND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND HE FUCKING DOES EVEYTHING HE POSSIBLY CAN TO MAKE MY LIFE HORRIBLE IM SITTING HERE CRYING AS HE MAKES FUN OF ME AND HAVE U EVER GOTTEN TO THAT POINT IN UR LIFE WHERE U JUST WANNA FUCKING STAB URSELF OR BEAR MASE URSELF OR JUST FUCKING KILL URSELF CUZ UR SO FUCKING STRESSED OUT THAT U FIGURE IF U JUST REPEAT THE SAME ROUTINE EVER SINGLE FUCKING DAY WHY NOT JUST FUCKING STOP REPEATING IT GOD I SOUND LIKE A FUCKING EMO BITCH RIGHT NOW BUT FUCK IM IN THE MOOD TO JUST FUCKIN GO SLIT MY OWN FUCKING THROAT RIGHT NOW I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS ANYMORE, I PUKE AND I PUKE AND IT'S BEGGINING TO JUST NOT BE ENOUGH I NEED TO FUCKING DO SOMETHING MORE SATISFYING CUZ CLEARLY I APPARENTLY JUST DON'T DESERVE TO HAVE A GOOD TIME SO I GUESS I HAVE TO THINK OF SOMETHING MORE FUCKING TORTUROUS FOR MYSELF NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT ME PUKING N SHIT BUT MY BOYFRIEND, N HES STILL A BITCH ABOUT IT, BUT WUTEVER IF NO ONE CAN FIND OUT ABOUT THAT, NO ONE WOULD BE ABLE TO FIND OUT IF I JUST DID WORSE SHIT RIGHT I NEED SOME SORTVE HARSHER DRUGS OR SOMETHING IM SICK OF THIS SHIT, MY BOYFRIENDS MADE IT CLEAR THAT I DONT DESERVE TO LIVE