I'm disappointed in myself. I promised myself i wouldnt drink anymore, cuz my boyfriend didn't want me to. but my friend wanted to drink, and she said she wouldnt unless i did. i called my boyfriend and asked if i could and he told me i could take a few shots and stuff aslong as i didnt get too drunk. too bad once i start i cant stop, and even though i told ppl not to let me drink too much, i drank more then everyone else there did... apparently i made out with 2 guys, and i dont even remember talking to either of them that night. this just proves wut a horrible person i am. my mom found out i cut, shes forcing me to go see a psychiatrist. i dont wanna tell anyone that, they'll think im retarded. fuck the whole school knows about wut happened that night. i'm one of the most popular girls in my grade, i thought it was kool, until i realized that means that everyones always in my business, so now everyone knows, and everyones gunna be harassing me about it. fuck im so stupid. everyone went drinking though and i didnt come... twice... i think this time im actualli serious about quitting. -Starry Eyes