I'm doubl-y over tired and I really just want to sleep in forever. I think I'm being bad. I know I'm being bad. I love ben. I brought him dinner tonight because he's working on the house forever.. he was so cute. i was shivering and my teeth were chattering and he put his hands under the shoulders of my shirt and held on to me and kissed me a bunch. he rubbed his eye for something and I said, I know you're crying because I'm leaving but it's ok don't worrry. and he said haha someday. sad. I told him I was sleeping in his bed tonight and I didn't really care whether he wanted me to or not. and he said good. I love him. he's having dinner with mum and I tomorrow. he said what do you want I said for what and he said a present and I said for what. I said nothing from you. so cute. ugh. tomorrow is my birthday. hmm