gahhh. so today jesse was all sick and what not and was yesterday too so I threatened to bring him soup.. and I actually did .. Carl was on his way to circuit city and I had to look at nano cases anyway.. so uhhh of course jesse hugged me and then we just looked at eachother and it was almost awkward but then he hugged me and picked me up again.. and kissed me on the cheek. but when we looked at eachother I wanted to kiss him so bad.. I can't even explain the feeling... it was horrible. I didn't, because I know how he feels about mel. and I want them to break up, but I don't . he's so happy and ahhh and if they break up there is no immediate chance for us.. and its so selfish to say that but in the car all I could think about was him and just staring at him and hugs and ugh. my leg was shaking for ever, like nervous shaking... meh. dear dear dear. <3 favorite.