hanging out with kyle chelsea karri and david made me feel so much better about so many things. first and formost... chelsea being upset about last weekend and what she though happened... that's all better. which makes me feel a billion times better and just ben. I dont know about ben. I havent said anything to him in 2 days. I dont plan on doing anything about him or even trying to talk to him. no more calls. no more texts. its not worth it. in the event that I see him / hang out with him or whatever... I have convinced myself to too him how I feel and how I see this / situation. gross, I know. ergh. exhausted. from work. from him. from fucked up speeing. from everything. ergh.