I really think... I'm just holding myself back. like, i try to tell myself that I need him that I want to be with him and see him but honestly, I don't. like, I feel like I should want to feel terrible I feel like I should be crawling to him saying, I need you. and in a way I do need him, but really, like, no. I'm making myself think that I should still be really upset and wanting to cry and feeling like crap and missing him. I think that I should text him and just say I miss him. but do I? really? no. I don't. I miss how we were, who I was with him, having my best friend be the one that I was completely infatuated with. I don't miss how I felt when it was bad. Not at all.. I need to stop telling myself to miss him and be upset. I'm not. honestly. I think about him, but i am no longer upset. just hurt by what happened... wowwwwwww