wednesday. I have reached my peak of exhaustion. talking to jesse on the phone until 1 didn't help. nor did getting up early to make cookies for ben. nor did going to school and not having a nap after and going out with Jesse and going to the JV game and attempting to stay for varsity. he seemed happy when I brought him cookies. I've convinced myself I'm not trying hard. I am just being ugh nice?... why do I get jealousish when I see will and michelle together. HA fucking will and I have been friends for fucking 11 years.ergh. she's lame. I wish I stayed at the game.. so I could have been around all those loves. that would have made me feel better. I'll go to the guys game tomorrow I guess... and just not die. blah. I am so on and off with this fod damn thing.