doo do doo. I was in a mean mood.. and kind of annoyed wednesday. Ben called and woke me up which is grounds for crankyness as it is but we talked for a while and then johnny called. thank god. so I went to johnny's. at like 7 I text'd ben and said "sooo why aren't I getting any" or something ridiculouslike that and he said because he had to go to work. I asked him how that affected me and reminded him that he didnt need to be there until 10. he said "it probably affects you because you aren't getting any" so I was annoyed. super annoyed. so I said " fine I'm just going to go find someoneelse to do" and he said "in new hampshire?" and I said "no you retard, tonight" Ben- :( me- It's not my fault you won't put out Ben- When you get back you can have all the sex you want me- PROMISE?! waiiit are you just saying this because you dont want me going out and getting some from some other person Ben- yes and yes :0 me- heh fine. I wont. but please note you just admitted you care, technically. Ben- haha :) SOOOO what am I doing?. good. I don't know either. I felt bad after I said whatever about another guy.. but I was kind of serious, and I know I threw it in his face for a reason because I needed him to care.. and I know it was mean to tell him that but ahhhhh I don't know. johnny called me a bitch for doing it. but he was happy cause I was happy that I was going to get some. I don't have phone reception. meaning I havent talked to him in a couple days.. like since wednesday, its saturday night. but I tried calling him last night from the house phone at 1030 or something, and his phone was off. I ended up leaving an angry message. but why was his phone off.. unless he was working?.. eventhough he has fridays off?.. I do not know. I am being obsessive aren't I?. yes. I went to hannaford today to get peanut butter ice cream.. and saw whoopie pie ice cream. and seeing how hes the only one in the world that eats whoopie pies .. I text'd him and informed him of this utterly grotesque ice cream. I wish he'd just call and leave a message. I is exhausted... roar.