Me and Brittany were on the phone [which is actually unusual as of lately] and we were discussing how so many people think that their lives are just so horrible when things could be so much worse. Ya know...too many people just wanna die as of lately. Me? I've never really wanted to die, that's just plum stupid. I just liked to hurt myself to the point where I may as well have been dead, I guess. Emotionally and physically speaking. So what is it, if you go and tell somebody about your problem with all of your emotions free then are you crying for attention, or being smart and trying to get the help you need. And when you keep all of your emotions to yourself then are you being wise by attempting to handle your problems on your own...or are you just being stubborn? I guess people can take them two ways. I've been told all my life how hard headed and stubborn I am because I try not to share my feelings with anyone. It pisses people off and I've realized that for the past 5 years, but I can't help it. I'm a jealous girl. Over people that aren't even mine. So I guess that makes me stupid. I hope I'm never as pathetic as some of the guys that like me though. They make me want to punch a god damned wall. Okay so only one of them does that. The other one is nice and isn't afraid to make a fool of himself in front of me The other one treats me like an angel and it's really cool And then the other one does all of the above, but then I guess he's just something I can't have, ya know? It's getting kind of late, I suppose I should go to bed. Good night world.