Hah. I think two faced friends are funny. And it's just frustrating when people get angry over the oddest reasons. Well maybe they wouldn't be so odd if they weren't unbeknownst to me. I'm honestly seriously rethinking my feelings. Though goodness knows no matter what nothing is going to change them. So I've been evaluating myself a lot..and I realize I don't like the person that I've become, at all. I'm rude and insecure and it is making life really tough. And then right now my mood's gone from my heart beating really really fast to I want to cry... in the past 15 minutes maybe? Yeah. Fucking contradictions. I know a lot of people who contradict themselves. I'm happy I finally know what that word means. I STRONGLY FUCKING DISLIKE people sometimes. But of course it's all my fault anyways. Maybe I'll fucking change who I am. Or maybe I'll stop giving a shit all the time. Neither of those are oging to happen. Nothing's going to happen. My life is pointless. UGH.