This is probably the worst night I've ever had. I've never been so sad. I can't even begin to explain my frustration and sadness. You probably won't understand no matter how much I tell you. Just imagine..nevermind. I won't bother. Ask me about it if you give a shit. This is the first time I've had a REAL reason to cry. And by god am I crying. :( ...life fucks you over sometimes. Maybe it's for the best. Maybe we all need to stop being so selfish. Those girls are happy...why fucking ruin it? Just because I raised them for the first year of their lives. JUST BECAUSE WE'RE THEIR FUCKING FAMILY. Who says they need to know we existed? Fuck you Chris. FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING FAMILY.