today I have done absolutely nothing. I talked to a lot of people on the internet. Including my friend Jordan I love him, but now I feel terrible, he basically told me a screwed up, then I told him I did. then we went on this increadibly long conversation that ended with a promise i could not keep, which I did not make. I cannot lie. maybe I can do it. but I do not want to be. If you are my friend, trust me, you do not want to be my friend. misery is my companion, my blade, my virtue, my hope, and all who walk by me will witness the sting and pain of all of it and die. Souless I feel like an empty shell. free of emotion. I feel like a life sucker of all those who touch me I cannot run though I want to I cannot hide though I want to I cannot stop though I want to I want to protect everyone from myself I dont not hate anyone besides myself I do not fear anything besides myself End All pain that you feel I feel All pain that we feel Christ feels All pain that Christ feels God feels I am the torturer I am the slayer I am the crusifier I am the murdurer dont argue, I know dont speak I wont hear dont listen I will not talk Never feel Never see I am nothing nothing to me I will return one day Tonight I pray for death, and all to forget my existance