I am sorry I am not good enough. Not bad enough. I am sorry that I am never around anymore. Always gone, always busy. Always making excuses. I am sorry I am not happy enough. I am sorry that I am not there when you need me. I am sorry that I am not richeous enough. I am sorry that I am not smart enough. I am sorry that I dont talk to you. I am sorry that I dont even think about you anymore. The truth is I dont think about anyone anymore. Not even myself. I dont care anymore. I am who I am. I am not going to change. I dont want to change. I am good the way I am right now. I do not love. I do not hate. I am not happy. I am not sad. I am not uptight. I am not laid back. I do not want to live. I do not want to die. I do not want to eat. I do not want to starve. I do not want to sleep. I do not want to be tired. I am not. I have become nothing. Nothing in my mind. Nothing in the minds of those around me. I am a shadow on the wall. Furthest from your mind. But only a prayer away. I tried once. Now I am done. I am not trying anymore. Its your turn, if you want me to be in your life, dont make me be the one working for it. I dont want to do all the work anymore. That is why I am but a memory. I am only called upon when needed, otherwise I am at the back of the mind. I am no longer needed apparently. I am sorry that you do not need me anymore. Sorry that I have started to try just as much as you have. Not at all. I am sorry I have decided to die. To stop. I am sorry for ever living. It probably makes it painful. I say I dont love you. But I do. All of you. Even if I have never met you. You are in my mind. I am wondering who you are, and what you are feeling. If I prayed anymore I would pray for you. But I guess I will think of you. No tears tonight. No laughter tonight. I am imparsial. Uncaring. Unthinking. Unthanked, Unpunished. I am Jeremy, I will be always, and I will never stop being me. Thank you for making me me all of you out there.