What do I know? What dont I know. I dont think I understand any of it anymore. It all seemed so easy in the scheme of things. But now I am truely lost. I dont think I know what is going on with anything anymore. Not anything. School, love, religion, family, life... I think the only thing I really know anymore is work. And even then I am haveng a hard time gaguing all of it. Damn, I feel so empty. I feel like death is the only comfort. But I would like to know what is going on and who I am. I am one person amoung billions. Why should it matter anyway? Why cant I think of them, you, anyone besides myself right now. I guess it is because I am lost. When I find myself I will find you too, I will help you, hold you and love you. Whether or not my love is her or you or somebody else I will live my life for her. Because whoever she is I love her, I know I do. My heart knows what my mind doesnt. so I will find myself then I will live for you again. All of you.