Today wus weird. I missed the bus cus I woke up when it usually comes… so I went on the computer and waited for my mom to drive me to school. I read someones diary, and really, it made me feel so bad. Ughhh… they think theyd be messing things up for me, but really.. I don’t know if that’s true, I mean if they want an need someone so bad.. I don’t wanna wreck that. I just don’t think I should be a part of it, I mean.. they’ve had way more, way longer.. and I think im just gonna try and like.. stop. Just, not get attatched to them again. I just, I don’t wanna mess anything up for either of them. Sometimes I just need someone, to tell everything to, cus I drive myself crazy if I don’t. But, hmm… idunno, ive decided that if she really needs an wants him, im just gonna back off… really, I mean, idunno.. id rather things be easier for her you know. But anyways, I don’t think im gonna do this whole dating thing for a while.. i mean, its not like I think anyone would even go out with me right now, I just.. I really like having someone there… I mean when I did, and it wus all working out, its so awesome. I love it so much, cus u know u always have someone there for you.. but u need to work on a relationship for it to really work. I mean its not like relationships are all work, u just have to really want to make it work. I know that all relationships aren’t always gonna be perfect.. but I want something that’s gonna last, and wont be all awkward. And I think im just gonna wait till the summer, and see what happens then! I love the summer, I hope this ones awesome! I just wanna hang out with people, and see what happens after. Idunno itll be fun hey kenz… were gonna have fun one night, maybe a couple nights! Lol omg im so excited! Maybe some special people can join us… ugh I cant wait till summer though I just can y waut till summer.. I just wanna have lots of fun.. lol alex, we are though. °·xOx·°