UGHHHHHH!!! god, i cant take this anymore... i dont know what to do. im so freaking stressed, and they dotn evn notice.. i hate it. I havent been saying anything on here about it.. but tonight, more stuff happened... and ughh, i wus in sucah good mood, and i wanna be in good moods more often, its just better... but all this shit happens, all at once.. and i have no clue how to handle it. I mean some of my problems i guess i make too much of a big deal, an i could probably try n get over them.. but theres just this one thing... thats not gonna go away. Its been with me my whole life.. i mean its my fault. Fcuk, i nvr did anything to deserve it, why cant things just work out. Sometimes i wish theyd leave me out of it.. ughhh, god. i hate this so much... i mean before, i went into this wierd "denial" stage... and i got superly depressed, and i wudent hang out with my friends as much, and i got all anti social.. and i made not to good choices to help relieve my stress.... but i cant do that now. i dont want to.. ive promised old people i never would.. but im not even in touch with them anymore.. ughh fuck i hate this. ugh whatever, i cant type anymore.. im gonna go