Hey..im super tired now, but i cant get to sleep.. im not sure whats wrong with me, i just cant evr fall asleep lately. hmm anyways, umm.. i just finished talking to kendahl, we had one of our last night talks lol i love those.. i love that girl too.. hehe i missed her. It seems like i miss alot of my friends, its wierd.. evn tho i talk to them on msn n stuff, idunno its not like we have no contact.. its just, idunno.. i feel distant. its wierd.. i just feel distant from most of them. i hate it.. sumtimes im not even sure why. Like at the stampede, sometimes it felt liek i wus just there, u know..idunno its wierd.. cus no one notices it, and i know im friends with all them.. and they all say nice stuff to u n stuff.. but idunno, just sumtimes im just standing there.. saying stuff no one hears lol u know.. ahh maybe its just me, but like i had to leave earlier then them all.. and only one person said bye to me lol. maybe i just ovr exxagerate it. aw know knows. lol anyways, i hate mirrors. Really, all they do is help u notice all ur imperfections, and wow..ive got so much lol. i really dont like the way i look right now.. idunno i just wish so many things were differnt. i hate my hair, i hate me face lol.. i think im soo big, lol like wow.. idunno i know u should just like urself for who u are.. but sumtimes i wish i could just change myself, i mean all my friends are soo gorgeous i hate it.. hmmm i think im done, im so tired..and problee make no sence ohh.. jennie, lol i wus just checking out this icon thing.. lol ill change it if u want me too, cus i know u had it for a wihle.. but i really like it, lol just tell me xox chels