Hmmm, okay ive nvr really done this.. but some people had one, and i decided that i wanna have one 2, cus i just need to get some of my pretty messed up thoughts out... and i just dont like my website, it takes ot much time, and i hate updating evrything. so here i am, lol. umm, okay..anyways, today wusnt all that great. I dont know whats wrong with me, i swear. i tihnk ive been holding evrything inside 4so long, because i lost the person i use to tell evrything to. I just dont know how to handle with my own feelings anymore, because i'm always worrying about other peoples. But ughh.. ive been trying to help my friend with sumthing she really wanted, but it turns out we want the same thing.. and i dont know what to do, cus when i help her.. it just makes things worse for me. but thats how its got to be, because i havta be there for my friends... but none of you hava clue what im talking about so im gonna move on lol I'm not sure if people are even gonna read this.. lol its probably better if they dont, cus ill just confuze people. but today i went to mcdonalds with a couple guys, and luke and we had this water fight, lol.. it wus fun cus i think i won lol. that wus problee the highlight of my day, really.. becus evrything else is just so messed up right now. But anyways, at fame.. it seemed like evry girl there was looking at my brother. it wus kind of awkward, cus he thinks hes like all that now. i dont mind some of my friends saying hes hot, becus they can think what they want, but ughh.. idunno its just wierd sumtimes lol. °·xOx·°