well today was a minimum day...pretty good until PE where chandra decides to tell ruth she's commiting suicide when she gets home...i found out and was just like what do i do...they were crying and they wouldnt tell me...but the chandra walked off and ruth told me...i spent the rest of that period and the next thinking of what to say...who i could tell...well long story short i left 6th and found ruth and chandra had gone and talked to a councelor...i'm still pretty scared...i don't want her to hurt herself...she's cool and whatever she is going through will pass over in time...man she's only a freshman and she has her entire life to grow out of this depression...man i hope to see her monday...geeze... UPDATE: listening to: news feeling:better well we are having pizza tonight...nummies... today was mr. c's birthday. he subbed for us in first period (his prep) so he told us the assignment mr. fisher had left us but told us not to do it...he does that every time he subs for us...thats one reason he's every one's favorite teacher...well i guessed his age right on the first try...41...i kinda freaked myself out with that one...well mrs. clark arranged a party for him and like 2 more classes came into my first period...we sang happy birthday and others ate cake...i don't like store bought cake...the frosting has so much sugar in it its gritty...we played silent ball after most except like one or two (ryan) went back to their class...that was fun...they played just hitting the ball while every one was there...i just hit it when it came toward tanya and me...andrew was there...i should have talked to him...i haven't talked to him in so long and i kinda miss him...i just can't wait till him and his g/f break up...i give it at most till graduation...she's graduating and he is only a junior...i'll probably talk to him before that though...or i'll hang out with him at graduation...we did freshman year... painted my toesies...black with yellow tips and on the toes next to my pinkies are little yellow stars...they are too cute!...i need to go shopping...i need some new black nail polish and some summer clothes...well i'll just keep bringing that stuff up... i've started to notice a sophomore named lucky...when i first met him he stood behind me in PE in like 8th grade...and he was athletic but had glasses and kinda looked a little geeky...but now...my my...he is built...he has one of the nicest bodies out of this highschool...he is still young but man! what a hottie! still has the glasses but that doesn't matter any more! but DANG! HE FINE! i think i shall go now...pray that i'll see chandra on monday...bye...