well, i see so much has changed since my last entry....i am no longer in love with jake....i was forced to not be "in love" with him anymore....he changed his mind, ultimately deciding he didn't like me anymore...whatever...screw him....anyways!... its the end of spring break and i've wasted it....sitting around eating and getting fat...making stuff like earrings and crocheting purses....what a life i've made for myself huh?.... i finally have some plans for my future....after i graduate i'm going to washington to stay with my sister for a month...then coming back home....staying long enough to get my stuff organized...pack stuff up...go to camp and then be a bride's maid in september and then move up there...probably for a long time....and the only thing that could keep me in california would be love....and i have high doubts of that ever coming to me here....well, i think i'm gunna go.....i have decorating to do...